THE SECOND ANNIVERSARY OF THE DEATH OF THE MOST LOVING AND SWEET WOMAN THAT I HAVE EVER KNOWN HAS COME AND PASSED. MY WAY OF THINKING AND BELIEVING HAS BEEN CHALLENGED AGAIN.

I THOUGHT THAT I WAS SO ENLIGHTENED. I WROTE THE WORDS ON THIS PAGE MONTHS AGO AND IT SEEMED TO BE THE WHOLE STORY OF BELIEFS EXPLAINED RATIONALLY. NOW MY LIFE IS IN AN EMOTIONAL HURRICANE BECAUSE MY WIFE IS LAYING DYING IN A HOSPICE WARD. SHE IS TERMINALLY ILL WITH CANCER. DISGUSTING, DESPICABLE CANCER!!!! GOD HAS SHOWN ME THAT HE IS IN CHARGE. I SUFFER RIGHT ALONG WITH MY WIFE EVERY DAY. NOW I ABSOLUTELY REFUTE THE STATEMENTS MADE ON THIS SITE, ESPECIALLY THE REST OF THIS PAGE. I'VE TRIED BARGAINING.. NO DICE! PRAYER, ALSO NO DICE! WHY WOULD GOD EVEN LISTEN TO MY PRAYERS LET ALONE ACTUALLY GIVE ME WHAT I PRAY FOR? NO REASON. ONCE I KNEW HIM AND THE SON IN A PERSONAL RELATIONSHIP BUT I LOST THE FAITH TO BELIEVE IN THAT WHICH I DO NOT SEE. IT'S TOO LATE FOR MY WIFE ON THIS WORLD SO I PRAY THAT SHE GOES TO BE WITH HER MOTHER AND FATHER AND HER DEAR DEPARTED PETS. THEY WERE HER LIFE. THE FEW REMAINING HAVE BECOME MY LIFE. I AM LEAVING THE PAGE BELOW THIS FOR ANY READERS TO SEE JUST HOW WRONG MY THINKING WAS AND HOW SO MANY OTHERS WILL FIND OUT THE HARD WAY JUST AS I AM. I PRAY FOR ANY WHO READ THIS AND THINK THESE JUST THE WORDS OF A DESPONDENT MAN WHO WILL REVERT BACK TO HIS OLD WAYS OF THINKING ONCE THE CURRENT PAIN SUBSIDES. I FURTHER PRAY THAT GOD GIVE ME THE STRENGTH TO AVOID THAT SATANIC LURE. I PRAY THIS IN THE NAME OF OUR LORD AND SAVIOR CHRIST JESUS. AMEN!!!

THIS IS WHAT I WROTE:

Christians hold that their faith does good, but other faiths do harm. What I maintain is that ALL faiths do harm. We may define "faith" as a firm belief in something for which there is no evidence. When there is evidence, no one speaks of "faith". We do not speak of faith that two and two equal four, or that the earth is round. We only speak of faith when we wish to substitute emotion for evidence.
Think of this... People are born and people die every day, every hour, every minute, every second. Some born sick.. addicted.. deformed.. mongoloid.. blind... missing limbs.. deaf and dumb.. People die at the hands of murderers.. from diseases.. accidents caused by themselves or others.. People drink and drug themselves to death.. Everybody born equal? The constitution says that they are.. quote "We hold these truths to be self evident that all men are created free and equal" Boy, saying it sure doesn't make it true. The "bible" is no more to be believed than that constitution...
Everyone lives an allotted period of time from 1 day to 120 years. Who determines who is born healthy? handsome or beautiful? rich or poor? black, white, red, yellow, brown or some shade in between? What happens at the time of our death? angels? bright light? heaven? hell? purgatory? Whose god is the best? the one god? the most understanding? loving? forgiving? greeting all the dear departed and rolling around heaven all day? Come on, god, yours or someone else's is an imaginary friend. the devil is an imaginary enemy. every religion has one and the other and ghosts and boogey men and saints. they all have people on this earth that claim and profess that they are direct representatives of some god and holy order. some think, or at least they say, that their god is a female. why are some women well endowed with beauty and pulchritude and some men also well endowed and others not? I heard a tale of a woman so much in love with her dead husband that she had his ashes put in breast implants and now she takes him with her everywhere she goes. I hope that he can be understanding when she is hooked up with a man that he wouldn't or didn't like and they are all in bed together.. does this matter? does any of it matter? Need to be soothed about your death or the death of someone you know or love? Check this out....
So and so went to be with the lord.
So and so joined with so and so in the arms of jesus in heaven.
So and so was greeted by angels as he/she entered into eternal peace.
You get the idea. Be good and great is your reward in heaven. This makes for a more orderly world. It keeps the masses subservient to the rich and powerful. It controls the world's people out of fear of death. Not just death but death in a hell that was made up in fiction. Even the KJ bible lets it's readers know that what is referred as "hell" is in reality THE GRAVE.

Make no mistake about my message to you. I believe that we have a Supreme Power in this universe, but not the so called "god" by whatever name you were taught to believe in. Man's expression of religion is epitomized by the "ten commandments". They are printed in all the bibles and translations on earth. You must have a copy of one of them so do some research. The bottom line is those commands are IMPOSSIBLE to keep and we are told that even to think of doing any of the forbidden is the same as doing it and the doer is guilty of breaking them ALL. So here we have it. Someone has a thief and a gangster for a parent and won't honor that person so they become guilty of breaking All the commands. To look upon a beautiful body of a female and think of loving her and one becomes a murderer with the curse put on him by the people who made up the religion that gave us these commands to put guilt on the masses. How many people follow the 4th command fully about not only remembering the sabbath but not working or causing any work etc? There it is the law breaker number one! And don't forget that to break that one makes you a liar, a fornicator, a murderer, etc. Does anything need to be said about loving thy neighbor as yourself?

Now, with all that said, let me tell you that the realization of the fact that there is no heaven or hell or meeting up with dear departed loved ones is in itself a curse. It forces me to face the cold fact that what I have and what I am living is all that there is. There are no pearly gates to enter and I find that disappointing. All these years of bible believing, and hoping to some day meet back with my parents and good friends in this life in the after life are now gone. The realization makes me sad!

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